I shall say goodbye.

If it was for last time, I'd be laughing my ass off with them people, crapping away for hours without realising the time right now.

Okay, I shall stop reminiscing. I tend to think that things would go back to how it used to be if I gave it some time but I don't look at it in that way anymore because it was just a phrase of life that I had to go through and the phrase would end eventually; it did. I've been trying really hard to improve the ways I handle things to satisfy everyone but it seems that no one would actually stop and take notice. I know I have my flaws, everyone does.

Right now, I really have nowhere to turn to.

I don't even feel resented anymore because I think I've finally achieved the stage where you're at, U-Guan.
I don't care anymore. It actually feels pretty good being alone or perphaps I've already gotten used to it. I don't have care so much about what they do, what they say or why aren't I there and I dont wanna be there because it makes me feel like some trash sitting there waiting for the truck to collect me.

No, I'm not in a state of depression lol. Once again, I'm alone at home doing NOTHING and my phone hasn't been ringing for awhile now. I've never felt so peaceful before. Haha. Btw, I can't get my ears off Michael Buble's Grown Up Christmas List. Its so beautiful. =)

Signing off.

Updates.

1. I quit my job and I'm still waiting for my flipping paycheck.

2. I got my hair curled and my lashes twirled.

3. I got my nails done for 13bucks. What a deal ehh. ;)

4. I'm not self concious no more.

5. I think I just lost a couple of good friends.

And baby, we're not meant to be.

Bye.

I got myself a part time job which eats up almost all my time. Its a good thing because I wont have time to think of my issues. I wont have time for anything anymore. No movies, no shopping, no outtings, no friends. I've been missing out alot of fun. Great. I've been really exhausted too, I dont get to have my beauty sleep anymore. The wage is reasonable thou.

Anyways, I hate you, Jojo Chan. I single handedly ruined this. How could I even put in thoughts like that when I know it might turn out this bad. *slaps my senses in* What in the world was I even thinking. Its all a big mess now. I had the worst day, worst night and the worst nightmare. I'm still upset. I'm sorry.

I'm off to work again. It has been the worst week. Bye.

Hoorah, hoorah!

I got my phone back. Ohwells, it doesnt make much of a difference tho. Its been away from me for a month and I'm still alive. Mum came to claim my phone yesterday.

Datin Mungit : Make sure she wont bring next time.
Mum : *Signs documents, walks away.*

Haha. Mum's the coolest. I've only been present in school for one day this week. Teachers dont even teach anymore. Nothing's left to do other than sleeping or talking. I'd rather stay at home and budge in my couch. Yes, I fail as a student.

Time to lay claim to the evidence, finger prints sold me out.

We're just six feet under the stars.

You know,

I'm trying, tryinggggg to be a nice person, really

but why are you provoking me?

and I'm trying hard not to sin.

Yes, I wont retaliate. I know it sounds contradictory lol but,

I'd at least give it a try. Things should be said succintly.

''How I wish I was on cloud 9.''

Ocean Wide has been stuck in my head since I dont know when.

Love the tune, love the lyrics and every single bit of it.

Lalalala, I love The Afters (:

Look outside

It's already light and the stars ran away with the night

Things we're said, words that we'll try forget,

it's so hard to admit

I know we've made mistakes

I see through all the tears but that's what got us here

If love is an ocean wide

We'll swim in the tears we cry

They'll see us through to the other side

We're gonna make it

When love is a raging sea

You can hold on to me

We'll find a way tonight

Love is an ocean wide

Friday tommorow,

please rain.

Flailing, falling, failing.

Its most probably, definitely me.

But I can handle this.

I've been though this.

I'll still treasure you very much as a good friend.

But dont take things too far, okay?

Halloween and the day after.

Went out with bryan and bumped into Henry and Annieeeee. I have to say, Henry not bad eh hahahaha. Anyways, watched Jennifer's Body with Bryan and the movie sucks balls. No doubt that Megan Fox is freakishly hot. The cinema was uber packed and we had to sit on the FOURTH row which was killing our necks. We hung around after the movie and left for church later in the evening. And I have to admit, my spiritual life is DYINGGGGGGGGG. I spent two hours in church and left. Headed to Bryan's place. Well its halloween so I rushed into some video store and grabbed some dvds. We watched the dvds I bought and LOL they were all terrible. His dvd player sucks nuts so we were basically watching boxes on the screen. Brilliant. So we turned off the tv and talked all night. Halloween wasnt so great after all. I bet you regret missing the party. Haha.

And yesterday, we watched This Is it. It wasnt really as spectacular as expected but I enjoyed it and Bryan FELL ASLEEP. Hahaha. Bryan says that she's not prettier than me. Lol.

Somebody wants to slap me, says her.

You're ugly, says me. =)

Its.. been awhile.
Have been really busy and exhausted with late nights studying.
Had multiple papers a day and I survived those damned weeks.
Finals are finally over, today but I dont really feel the elation I dont know why. Something's missing.

I sometimes fantasized what might have happened if you hadn't left for the certain period of time, but with reality slapping in my face on a daily basis, I cut the daydream short. I should get over it after all these months. Everyone thought that my indefatigueable manner with you would never die off - well so did I. But I'm really, really tired.

Anyways, Halloween this saturday. Gonna watch tv all night and scream to myself. Never really celebrated Halloween before so I think its gonna be he same for this year. We decided to watch Jennifer's Body tmrw and I read the papers today and it got really bad reviews. Ehh.. we'll still be watching it, megan's foz body is already worth watching. Haha. Btw, I need a good siesta tonight. Will be hitting the sacks early. Good day tmrw. =)

Somewhere only we know.


Why cant there be downright pure love?